Phases of The Moon: Its been a while aint it? :) hasnt been a really g...

Phases of The Moon: Its been a while aint it? :) hasnt been a really g...: Its been a while aint it? :) hasnt been a really good day for me. phone got stolen, argued with a love at dawn and have been moody most of t...

Its been a while aint it? :) hasnt been a really good day for me. phone got stolen, argued with a love at dawn and have been moody most of the day...but I'm still grateful to have watched Wolverine with a pal....just thought of this....tell me what you think

I may be Dark
I may be gloomy
But one thing is certain.... I'm always moody
I think of what I want to tell whoever is out there
Can you hear this heart? can u feel its fear?
I belong to one...no!..to two
A fate I dare not misconstrue
So few can hear, not many can see
The humble beginnings of this Willow tree
Whose simple wish
 Is to set her soul free

Phases of The Moon: So lately I've found myself slowly turning into wh...

Phases of The Moon: So lately I've found myself slowly turning into wh...: So lately I've found myself slowly turning into what some people may call an Otaku. Yes, i know it has negative connotations in Japan b...

So lately I've found myself slowly turning into what some people may call an Otaku. Yes, i know it has negative connotations in Japan but outside its just used to refer to people who have a passion for a certain thing, usually anime or manga. I've found myself drawn to anime since childhood and now find solace in it. I'm not yet sure what i'm trying to find solace from though just yet but I'm just going with how I feel. Wrote this today after being motivated by Bleach =D. I don't know if its complete yet. I usually never know until I've written the ending...lol....maybe it still doesn't have one...

STEPS TO AN OTAKU
Opening up was simple for me
All I had to do was to wake up, open my eyes and see.
But the whispers were loud
Drowning out the warm sound of support and love
So I took a step back,
And another, and another till I was running
Running to reevaluate and reflect in the world of my soundtrack
The tracks are rough as they continue to track my steps
from my rising with the morning's dew
To my falling with the glowing moon
Either way it's a cool coloured spectrum I see
Where even the chilly wind is home to me
I find my warmth is lit by the cold
As my solid heart is frozen in time
Protected from harm
Icicles are sharp and I know that they are
But I'd rather welcome the ice and the snow
than let you thaw me out and give me a scar
My dreams take me far
To where hearts are linked by a gold chain
Each helping out with the other's pain
I'm insane
Just because I refuse to play your game
So let me be in my world of fantasy
Where my sincere emotions remain the same

Honest Moon

I'm honest with my feelings...
I'm honest with my pain...
And yet with all my honesty, I have nothing much to gain...
The rain doesn't subside...
And the tide continues to rise..
And the emotions wash over me as I drown in people's lies...
Sadness, love, that emotional trove...
is it a blessing or my curse from above?
Above me is a cracking halo...
shards fall matching my scars and giving way to a crown of thorns and sorrow...
I wish I could simply borrow anothers heart when mine is tired from the strain I place on it...
I welcome defeat...
You hold her in your arms and I know when to retreat.
Playback never passes up the chance to play back moments that remind me of the woman I had been...
What do I feel?
In all honesty...surreal...
I float in a boat of my past, hoping the river of tears takes me to peace at last
And that the last thing I would remember is that line of faces and names that fade with the wine...
My vision narrows as my life hangs on that thin, 

woven 

line....

DONE

Giving up is what I seem to do

To everyone and you

So why don't I just live it up

Throw in the towel and just give up?

Time flies

U can’t pluck its wings

 I guess it’s time the fat lady sings

I feel the black crows crowding in

Armageddon

It’s true what they say

You can’t take back the words you never said

You can’t undo your past or your hair when dread

Is all that fills your soul.

It’s just a hole

Feeling lost, feeling stupid n dumb

With all dese voices; don’t be surprised when i become numb

I won’t succumb

To the pressure of your thumb

Always pushed to my knees

To have a conversation with the faces above me

 My fate is written

Why should i bother to see what was handwritten?

By a force? God or gravity?

Inadequately

I live day to day

Everyone around me wondering if I’m ok

But they only judge me now because I’m different

No more transparent to even my parents

But my mind is a labyrinth

Of corridors n doors

I’m locked in

Too small or too big to find the key

Alice in wonderland

Character, habits, persona, Jehovah...

Behavior, culture, norms and mores

Rules are the tools men use to trap you

We let them use, misuse, abuse our mind

My quest is on for my questions to get answers

Together as specks of gunpowder, we constitute one shot

 N one shot is all i need now...my next line? I forgot...

Fuck u.